Turn Out the Lights

Turn out the lights
The party's over
They say that all good things must end.

Oregon had a good run, but it all came crashing down for them. If you aren't going to win it all, lose ahead of time. Don't lose the World Series, Super Bowl, final game of anything. It's just too painful. And then the "experts" will talk about how you can't win the big one, even though you won a bunch of big ones just to get there.

I really thought we would win. Our quarterback had a good game, we got turnovers, their quarterback is a third stringer - I would think we would have won. Not just a third stringer, I don't even like him. Earlier this year he said, and I quote, "Why should we have to go to class if we came here to play football. We ain't come to play school. Classes are pointless." We let him beat us?

I believe I now have a lifetime record of 5 and 12 in games I care about. Sometimes you root for teams, but life goes on if they lose. You know if its a game that you really care about. My teams have won a few, but its not often. I'm lucky the Seahawks won last year, that broke up a long string for me. Each time this happens a little part of me dies inside. But it grows back and I end up being stronger. Just kidding. No, it dies inside and its not coming back. Each of those 12 loses has taken a little part of me. I'm pretty much hollow by now. Going through the everyday agonies of life have helped mature me, though. After a Super Bowl loss when I was in college, I didn't eat for two days. Don't tell me that's messed up. I already know. This time I'm already halfway through the second stage of grief, so I'm making good progress.

I never thought I would do something like this, but I didn't even watch the second half. I saw how things were going, and I thought I didn't want to see that - see the other team celebrating. This way, it didn't even happen. I see it as a lack of loyalty in a way, but my mind is in a better place now because of it.