Almost two years ago I got double crossed out of something I had earned and deserved. Its taken me a long time to get past that. In the aftermath of it I felt like how could I work for people that would do something sneaky to me like that. I would have been smart to have quit right then, but I didn't. I hung on for one more year before getting out.
I think getting passed those feelings is a
combination of willing yourself to move on along with having
time go by. And I think part of willing yourself to do it is
keeping yourself busy. Theodore Roosevelt had is wife and mother die
on the same day from unrelated causes. He later said “Black Care
doesn't ride on a horse whose pace is fast enough”. I would think running for President and losing would be a
tough thing to deal with. Al Gore seems to be doing OK, but I bet he
still has a lot of sadness over losing. “What if I campaigned like
a minute and a half longer in Florida?” There must be years of
second guessing yourself and not feeling bitter about the guy that
beat you. Probably some never get over it.
Anyway, that pretty much has happened for me, but I still think about that time. Last night I even had a dream about it. It wasn't my typical dream because in this one, I was wearing pants, but it pointed out to me that that difficult time is still with me on some level.
I've talked to some others that have
had difficulties in their lives and I think that combination of will
power and time is right. You can't just will bad memories away and
just the passage of time doesn't do it either. Its a combination of
the two.
I should take some of this and turn it
into a book. People with less talent and insights than me write
self-help books and make a lot of money from it. I could do the same.
I could put that picture with me and Miss America on the
cover. I think that would sell.
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